Deafening Silence

There is probably nothing in the world more uncomfortable than a silence, a time of sitting and pondering. Being left along to think, which more often than not is why we feel uncomfortable, we don't like to think, we like to have distractions and noises everywhere because we don't want to listen. But you may ask, " What is there to listen to if it is silent??" That's exactly the point, silence is what forces focus, to lean your ear closer to listen for the smallest whisper, or the more deafening SILENCE. Think about it, how often do you sit in silence? I know I don't very often because of the uncomfortable feeling of being held accountable, even though I am constantly held accountable to my Heavenly Father, the silence forces me to be all the more aware of His presence. That, I think, is why most Christians do not like silence, we fear punishment, discipline, or maybe nothing less than positive blessings, but we refuse to think of them as such because the silent waiting it took to get them was so painful, we forget to rejoice in our silent sufferings. We ( I am definitely speaking to myself here) need to come to a place with silence with the Lord, we need to stop and listen. Sometimes, more often than not the Lord will not answer audibly so we are forced to dig deep down and search our hearts for where the Lord is leading.

In the last month I have come to a place of silence in my life, and let me tell you it is not by choice. I am slowly learning that I need to rely on the Lord to speak to me before I begin to rely on anyone else. I shouldn't rely on anyone else. IT has not been easy and I do not think it will be either, but I believe until I learn to be silent with the Lord he will surround me with silence. Until I can learn to just lean on him and trust him for everything, he will keep the one voice I desire to hear silenced.

Matthew 15:23 " The Lord did not answer a word"